And she's off.........
Its been a day filled with strange emotions. I held it together walking her to school for the 1st time this morning. She held my hand so tight, asking all sorts of questions. "will my teacher like me? Will you pick me up? Will you hold my jacket for me? Will Kenna be there?" I made sure she had an extra pair of shoes incase her new shoes hurt her feet and she couldnt play, and socks in case she wanted to wear said shoes anyway even though they may hurt, and just in case some hello kitty bandaids in case she falls and chapstick in case her lips get chapped.. and a cell phone in case she missed me (kidding) and on and on and on. Afterall, she wasnt home to just be able to ask me...gosh. As she was lining up after the 1st bell, I felt the tears welling up...but darn it, I was not about to make her sad or nervous by crying, plus, there were so many moms there that I was trying to impress in hopes of a new friend, that I just couldnt lose it yet. (and for some reason, they werent crying either, I'm sure they were trying to be brave like me! After she walked inside, the tears started comming. I really missed her this morning, in fact, I cried for a majority of it. I really just longed for her to be a baby in my arms again, yet I am so proud and delighted in the little lady she is becoming. Its just a strange, happy, sad, emotional growing day. My feelings aside though, afterall, it is HER big day! Afterschool, she came barelling out of the door and ran into my arms ready to tell me all about what had happened. I couldnt soak it in enough, we were surrounded by kids ,yet no one else even existed to me but her and her sweet little voice, the moment was so cool. I think I am ready for tommorow...and I know she definatly is. What a day.
After school we played at the park, Moses really missed his "see-soh". He followed her everyhwere.
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Thanks for that. You reminded me of Jaides first day in school, and she only has one first day (of public school) left. I even got a bit misty eyed. Bella looks so sweet and so excited!
You sure have a way of making me cry and then laugh quickly afterward. You really should start writing children's books, you would be great!
I am happy to hear that Bella's first day was positive!
I love the rain pictures! I was also thrilled with the change in weather, but I didn't think Brandon was old enough to go playing in the rain - next year.
So sweet. She looks so cute and excited to be headed out on her first day. I am sure the emotions are a mixed bag. Somehow, I bet all the other moms there were feeling the exact same way. Next year you should take kleenex and have a cry fest.
I cried when Abby got on the school bus this year and she is in second grade. It is so hard when they have been your constant companion and comfort for so long. I am often comforted by the fact that I really think she was older and wiser than me in the pre-existence and she chose me to be the one to watch her experience this earthly journey. She watched me take the first plunge to earth and I get to watch her experience her earthly life each day. I love it.
I am glad my girls are too little for that yet because just reading about your day made my eyes get a little misty.
Bella looks so adorable!!!!!! I love the backpack and her fancy first day of school outfit! I bawled on Os first day of Kindergarten when I left her in her classroom.....Then, on her first day of first grade I cried all day because she was gone soooooo long. But, now I am pretty much over it, besides some reflection on the first day, so I promise, it DOES get better! She looks so happy!
You are TOTALLY entitled to tears, though it takes bravery to get through until they leave your sight. How cute does she look? That outfit!!! I'm sure she was turning heads at the door! I love her face in that picture of the kids in line! SO joyful! And, I'm so glad you found the backpack! XOOXOXOXOXOX
Just admiring your blog from Idaho.
Your photos are amazing....you know that right?!
I totally hear you. Kaelyn just started preschool and I was being a big baby. You're such a good mom too, so I know you took it all in. Its funny, being a newbie back to Utah. I totally get everything you said about trying not to cry in front of a mom that could be a friend. Ya I get it.
and the rain blog.. Well I think after living in Oregon there is just something about rain that makes it that much better!!!
once again LOVE the pics!!
She must have seemed to grow up over night! Way to go on you both making it through the 1st day of school!
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