so I'll always remember...

Mothers day. Sometimes I feel like Mothers day is a day made to make me feel inadequate. Isnt that the most pessimistic way of looking at it? Okay, to start, I do not think I am a bad mother, I just have my days, like we all do. I've just had some feelings that I thought I'd share. I say this bit about being inadequate because every mothers day, we hear stories upon stories at church of mothers who seem to just make life happen so peacefully and seamingly easy. I dont sew well and I cant take scrap fabric to make my kids glorious clothes. My cooking abilities are sub-par, I hate going to to the park, I dont always keep the cleanest house, most days, Bella is lucky to get breakfast before school, I love to sleep and I'm not always the best at making Buddy feel like my number 1. What I do have however is the desire to try, to be better, to make beleive with my kids. I love to create magical moments for them and see the wonder in their eyes just thinking about what happened. I try to make Buddy feel loved and appreciated, he's everything to me. I love teaching them that the impossible is possible, that we can do and be anything we want to be, nothing can stop us if we try. I have a testimony of the Savior that I try everyday to teach them. If the only thing I do well in motherhood is to instill in them a love for Jesus Christ and a beleif that they are loved beyond measure by God and Jesus Christ, then I feel like all the other ways I don't stack up wont even matter. I wasn't sure if I should post these feelings, but I figured that as mothers, or soon to be mothers, or possibly even women in general, we tend to be too hard on ourselves, some are better at being kind to themselves than others. I know I am one of the worst at that, and I am working on it. If we can forget all of the many things that may deter us from being "perfect" (so to speak) and concentrate on doing our best, whatever level that may be, we can feel overjoyed in knowing that we are making a difference in this world. In our Children, in those that may be looking to us as an example, unbeknownst to us. This mothers day, I had these feelings swell up in my heart and I felt such a sense of peace in knowing that I dont have to go this alone, and that, is the BEST mothers day gift I could have received.

A close and I mean VERY VERY Close runner up, if not tied for 1st place, is being spoiled to death by my family! Buddy made the most devine breakfast ever! Salmon with Potato Hash, with a poached egg and lemon Hollandaise sauce...YUM!! Then Isabella made me a card where it was very important (she said) that it rhymed. I had to work in Salt Lake the night before, and apparently she missed me. Then they surprised me with a Zune, which I cant even tell you how much I love.
Some lotions and loofahs, a delicate pearl dress up necklace that had to be tied to stay together, that I wore with pride to church. Bella thought I looked so pretty! And lots of loves and kisses.

And so I wont forget..the ryming mothers day card...

(even though you were gone last night.......I still love you with all my might)